Extra-OrDinary~

Great day...good weather,the sun shines~ It suppose to be just another day...but finally had a chance to collect my SPM cert with the courtesy of my highschool good friend. Was lucky,it was his last sem break that day. Woot! Haven't seen him for such a long time,it's so hard when someone is so VIP you know...the last time I saw him was in LRT station ,3rd Nov last year. He had losed so much weight,no more the Chubby guy .*he used to have baby cheeks in highschool*.The only thing he still has ,was his sense of humour which never failed to make me laugh*he used to drop by our class and make havoc!haha~juz kiddin*[wink wink]I know why...haha~shh~~

And so, we went to school...nothing much change, really...still the same building, a little renovation here and there, and a lot of unfamiliar faces.Imagine...we used to study here!Our alma mater!Took the cert ..duh!Okay...it doesn't hurt that much anymore.Went hunting for my brother to tell him he won't have to sit the bus that day...he must be so happy^^.On the way leaving, he exclaimed,"Where is the big tree?",there used to be a big tree opposite our front gate of the school,for whatever reason,they cut it down ...so students won't have the urge to take their time off by puffing their cigarettes there,I guessed.

Decided to go for lunch,manage to kacau Racheal at her home beforehand.LOLx~So...if I'm not mistaken,I remembered that this good friend of mine pantang whenever he sees anyone talks while eating. Well ...just to annoy him,I did just that...haha~He didn't say anything! In fact, we just kept chatting...oops!Bad habit~ He insisted on paying for the lunch that day,since he is working...and at the same time being a gentleman...*wao,isn't it hard being a guy sometimes?*I don't know about that!

I really feel bad,coz he caught me looking at my watch a dozen times while eating.Hmm~He just told me to relax...teasing me about being a Cinderella *when midnight strikes thingy?*Just wanted him to know that I'm sorry for being such .."ergh"!and I'm glad meeting him after so long,he still that happy-go-lucky guy!

Okay,let's call it a day.Gotta catch up on my PF.Having coursework next Monday!Haven't understand a damn thing! Again~thanks Teik Ghee for a great day^^

Turn off the lights!! [28th March 2009]

Only we can save our earth!

Aiks..feeling so lazy to blog...but I have something to say...about Earth Hour?
Yea...I'm suppose to feel guilty here..honestly,I'm not really into this earth thingy...No~Don't get me wrong...I might not be joining any activity that relates to "earth conserving" but...I don't leave my room without turning off the lights...,I don't leave the tap water on while brushing my teeth,*but I take time to wash my hair* LOL~

Oh so...actually,honestly...I have already decided to turn off my lights... on 28th of March in conjuction of the Earth Hour.I was so..urm how to describe?So..."semangat"if that what you decide to call it...However...now,again..I think I would feel guilty again...brr~Okay,how am I to explain this...Imagine turning off the lights and tell your grandpa and granma that the power station have cut off the electricity.Imagine sitting in the dark with them and expecting them to do nothing,their shining eyeballs looking back at you in the dark,and scaring the hell out of ourselves..OMG!I would do just that ,*turning off everything, including my hp*if I were to stay here..but, the thing is..I'm leaving for my hometown...to wateva u call it..not "celebrate"haha but...*i'm trying to find the right term for this,and still trying*[stop laughing Jas,at least help me to find the right term okay?]haha..it's damn funny by the way...oh..I'm going back hometown to ______ "cheng meng"..[pls,help me fill in the blanks with the right term]

Okay,maybe I should just stop finding lame excuses...If I were to turn off the lights,tell me...give me some ideas on what to do...what I should do.Not getting to surf the net in kampung is bad enough...and then this 1 hour...I can't read my Eclipse!!Okay,maybe I have mistaken 1 hour is equals to 60 minutes equals to 3600 seconds for 1 day!Well,it's just 1 hour!
It's not that hard after all ryte?But ...how about granpa and granma?!Okay,they probably think that we ,young people got nothing better to do...nevermind..whatever it is...off my hp,rest my ears from my MP4,turn off the idiot boxand the radio...so.."Bell can't be reach from 8.30pm till 9.30pm on 28th March!"and I'll be back to write about what exactly I did..during that 1 hour!A romantic candlelight dinner maybe?with granpa granma,perhaps?haha~unpredictably crazy!!See ya~Again...support Earth Hour! It's the least we can do to save our EARTH!!!MOTHER NATURE!!!

Like any other day~

7.52am , to be exact...again I amazed myself.The fact that I don't find trouble dozing off the night before even thought I woke up at about 11am yesterday,and went back for a nap at 2.30pm and woke up to say bye bye to the sun, it was already 7.30pm!Duh,maybe he was right after all,"izit the time of the month?"haha~oh...that explains it all...It drained my energy too...

Feeling so guilty now,for not completing tutorials...laziness is haunting me again!
Can't believe this..My eyes ...feel like going back to sleep again~*yawns*Okay,until now,I didn't receive any message telling me that PF is cancel...so I guess our plan is goin on~~*cheers*mm~~fries at last!*only those who is involved knows what I'm talking about*

Okay~there he is again...I think I can't expect to be alone even at this early hour...*when my eyes are still struggling to open*alright maybe it's the lullaby playing on my friendster profile...can't remember how many dozen times I replayed it...it's so beautiful...very ,very,beautiful...drowning me again and again,and I like the way it drowns me and I feel it ...to the point I felt like I'm in heaven ~*maybe it's just me* It's one of the theme song in Twilight,yes,the vampire movie.It's called Bella's Lullaby ,in actual fact, the title of this song is called "River Flows In You"by Yiruma.It is piano played and that made it more beautiful...
I wanted this song so badly...I want to listen to it every night~*ZiWei~u got that song for me already?*[ I bugged her to get me this song,btw thanks ^^]

I better get going now,having PF tutorial at 10...wait let me check to see if there is 1 miss call or 1 message...haha~I'm LATE!!

L.O.S.T

Title: L.O.S.T~


Lost myself today,
Trying to run away,
From confusions to illusions.

Went out through a door,
To feel better,
Didn't expect it to become so unfamiliar.

Alone,I was...
Trying to find the answer,
But I can't think any further,
I was almost a loser.

Standing there still,
Not sure if I should follow the crowd,
To get out,
Or take my own path.

But this insecurity,
Made me cringe,
Wonder if I would only run around in circles,
And end up in tears.

Maybe I was lucky,
To have found my way...
Looking at their faces,
This fears went away...

But I am still afraid,
What if I lost myself again?
What if I'll never find my way,
Like today?

~ 5.03pm~

Senses of sorrow~

Write for fun..inspired by nothing~

Title: Senses of Sorrow~ [S.O.S]


Shh~~
Can you hear it?
It's screaming again...
Banging against this wall,
That is threatening to crumble and fall.

Ouch!
Can you feel?
The throbbing pain,
As it stabs from the inside,
Threaten to creep out,
For the whole world to see,
Everything that is hidden behind these sheets.

Shh~
Don't wake me,
Even when the time is up,
Let me succumb to this fantasy,
This dream that never be a reality,
Can't you see?
I am happy here,
Isn't that what your wishes were?

Ouch!
I saw the pain in your eyes,
When I can't open mine,
Didn't want to realise,
This dream will always be the same,
And I will remain imperfect as I was.
Messed up like always~

So let me continue my dream...
Will you?
It's my heaven for now,
My peace I found,
No matter what the price I have to pay,
I have to stay...
Until one fine day,
When I finally find my way...
And, I hope that you will be there,
To tell me that I am awake,
To help me walk again.

I was tagged~GREAT!

The rules:
1. Your Name
2. Left handed/right handed
3. Favourite alphabet to write
4. Least favourite alphabet to write
5. Write down “The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog.”
6. Name 6 of people you're gonna tag.

1)Belinda Teh Mei Yeng
2)Right..duh~I WAS Left!!My Grandma stopped me!cz it's a "pantang"?
3)Z?
4)none...really~
5)"The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog."
6)Ah LOOnG,Bong YAng,Vivian,Shaz...I have no idea!


wat is this for?!!no idea!

A blessing or a curse?

Lucky No.7~

Woot!

Red HOT!UNdeniable~

What did I tell u...it doesn't matter,wateva colour it is..it's adrenaline -rushing

Dark Lady?

Wa!!~Woke up to find PF tutorial cancelled again...izzit a blessing or a curse?

U tell me...Then got so bored ..decided to check out some hot machines...*thanks to Gan* he just perked me up at the right time...LOLx...

Let me tell u a confession of mine....I am actually really envious of Cristiano Ronaldo,the number 7 striker of Man Utd!!Yes..I AM ENVIOUS~Don't get me wrong..I'm not jealous of him coz he got to play football...or having a bunch of HOT chicks running to him anytime he want.I just feel that he is so lucky...even at a young age.It's just so ..UNBELIEVABLE!!!Oh yes!I am ENVIOUS!!How am I not to? All he said when he crashed his 1.6mil Ferrari recently was,"I'm thankful to God that I'm okay."Wao! If I were to meet him..I'm gonna have to ask him if his Ferrari was okay~Do u think his heart even wrecked a bit like his Ferrari?If I was to own one..I'll probably bash my head on the wall for making even the tiniest stratch on it.I know ..I won't have the chance ...*sobs*This guy would probably just get the car for a repair..and TADAH!,he is ready to crash it again...Even if he decides to ditch the hot thing,he had a fleet of cars..so it doesn't matter ...*btw, he had a Rolls Royce Phantom*ERGH!!! As much as I hated him,I loved him too...being labelled as spoilt..with well... good looks*although he don't look good all the time*,I am impressed...won the EPL and European Champions...42 goals!!Okay...man...you deserve it don't you?Ferguson is impressed too,isn't he?Thats why,Cristiano is the best No. 7!*although recently,Liverpool played a different tactic and won 4-1 against them*

Right,enough about Ferraris...I don't quite fancy them anyway,*consoling myself* I preferred FairladyZ...I am uploading some nice pics here to make up for some of the past "emo" posts..."gOmeNasAi~"I hoped I didn't bored u guys out...Come on..admit it! FairladyZs are irresistable right?! To be honest,I don't know much about these machines..but they just got my adrenaline rushing everytime they drift by~Whose fault is that?!Check out these curves, and the RIMS*I mean the car* ,tell me do u feel exactly what I felt?Okay..Imagine if u were a Man Utd fan and I tell you,you got to meet Cristiano in person...how do you feel? A Yeah! feeling!!Thats right!That's what I felt!

So,the conclusion....is this a blessing or a curse?Having to wake up and discovered that tutorials was cancelled?I don't know..and Jas...yes,I remembered the plan we had...guess we had to make it to another day...perhaps it was never meant to be~~*sobs again*

Still breathing~

The "helper" at Career Fair.

Bell and the gang!Gurl Power!

1,2,3,4,5..eh,wer is another 1?

Seriously...I like this... say CHEEEESE~~~

Jas n I cam-whoring in LRT..=]

I did this...

Jasmine's tag~

Have I been abandoning this space?Jas..ok.I do you a favour by updating it.2nd week,I rated it as 50/50.Lets start with Tuesday..what really happenned?Urm..nothing,tutorials as usual,cracking very lame jokes, and enduring the rain.Wednesday...a lame one...the fact that I used hours to get ready for 2 hours of lecture that day..haha.Thursday...thanks to Jas, I had a chance to glimpse the Career Fair that was held that day...nice day.We became helpers for a minimum of 4 hours , and we did stroll the booths blindly.I think we are definitely not ready yet to start any career anytime soon.We are still infants and actually we just wanted to look around other than collecting various kinds of pens. *I like the pink highlighter*.There are nothing much to do,and what I did was...making new friends.They were a bunch of down-to-earth people and no doubt ,that's what I call modest ,brilliant people.Just to recite-Xue Yi,Kah Yin,Wendy and a few others...*did I even spelled their names correctly?*The day was fine espeacially when our OHR tutor complimented our class for being an "oustanding " group.Wee~that is definitely an "intrinsic" award we seek.We are "Theory-Y" people, you see...


Then came Friday,it started to rain at 6.45am, the second I woke up. I had to go for a replacement class that day.ERgh!I wanted to go back to sleep ,convincing myself that there is no big deal skipping 1 class.To be honest...I don't fancy Principle of Finance and I hate to admit that I am actually very useless in maths. I don't like numbers!!!And so the rain continued like there is no tomorrow,got heavier and heavier.I pray silently, that it will soon stop and let the sun shine for my sake.I can't stand it,the rain...it drowns me. It's was 9.15am and still pouring...I decided to just go to college anyway considering the fact that my girlfrens and I had made a deal to wear that Accounting T-shirt that day.Caught a bus,luckily I had my MP4 with me...blasted music in my ears and shut my eyes pretending that I did not hear the rain although I'm obviously wet.Can't possibly walk...in the heavy rain and was glad that I took a cab instead from the station to college coz I almost lose my sandals halfway walking a few times...all because of the rain.If I were to wear my sneakers,it will definitely collect rain water*squeshy~a not very pleasant feeling*Imagine squeezing out water from my socks!Glad did not wear shoes...
Ah...PF tutorial,tried my best to do some of the question the night before, and I can't do the budget thing!Felt rather helpless...and answered a silly question..no I was being silly.The tutor asked if anyone preferred financial companies to commercial banks when making a loan.I did,and she asked me why..and I said because interest rate is higher!For goodness sake...I wanted so badly to find ways to invest that I misunderstand that I am the one who is playing a role of that particular "financial company"!LOL..yeah...if I were to make a loan ..DANG! I'll be bankcrupt in no time~What was I thinking? I suspected a litre of rain water have made a mess in my brain..electrified ,maybe? What do u think?*GAspS!*

Foggy,Cold ,Wet...

So early..and I have to drag myself out of bed...It's been raining for the past few days as if it was crying for me.Nah,who cares right? Nevermind,at least, I have the chance to feel how is it like to live in foggy Forks...*that's where the vampires live,or at least I thought so*but I'm not lucky to have Edward,bah!

Ergh...gotta go for classes later..OHR...have to stay awake...need some caffeine...I thought I am the only one who bother to online at this early hour...but nah...a pink window pops out..stating"hey..so early.."He is early too...we had too...although it's that warm,soft smelly pillow of mine is irresistable....alar...time's up gotta get moving,hope the clouds just gets away....

hell ...all over~

Just saw my results for the second sem.Not good..in fact..it's very bad...C for QS...thats really unacceptable...only manage to get A's ...for subjects that are least important..and B's..WT!!


The worst feeling is coming back to haunt me..the exact feeling I felt a few months back..I have just started standing back on my feet...and I crash all over again...maybe thats me...born a loser all along...sms-ed my dad, he was expecting better.He called...and congratulated me.I felt like crying...I just manage to mumble ,"ok"...

My mum...I haven't tell her anything...then she miss called me...she was upstairs in her room.I went up..."how was ur results?"I guessed dad must have been the messenger."BAD",I said...

stammer,stammer~

And so...as quick as lightning,1st week is about to end.Everything is fine...a bit excited for first 2 days...then adrenaline went away...

Yesterday,attended 2nd OHR tutorial,and about to discuss the 1st tutorial that we skipped.My group should be the 1st to present but then I only got to know that we have to present and explain the multiply choice question on the transparency as well...and we didn't have anything transparency whatsoever...we just hung our mouth open like noobies...Then he say,"I thought I had made myself very clear."I just thought to myself, "Sorry sir,you didn't make yourself really clear!"cz another group too didn't expect this too...so..okay...sir is not really satisfied...I can tell by the way he smirked.
The tutorial went on anyway,with other groups...and we manage to borrow a transparency and do our stuffs on the spot...haha!!Thank God Jasmine can read my ugly hand-writing,she write on the transparency while I scribble away...thinking what to "bulls**t" like an idiot in front.My turn came ...I just bulls**t what I can remember at the same time having trouble pronouncing the word "FORMALISATION"!!What was wrong with me?!Stammering non-stop...but I managed to stop myself from transforming into a red tomato...I blush when I'm nervous,blush when I paiseh,blush again when I am furious!!I hate it but I can't help it...it made me so red !He questioned me...I continue bulls**thing...he wrote something down...and at last he muttered "good"..haha..claps anyway...we did it!Wee~~


Actually,felt a little off colour today ,my irrational mood swings is driving me crazy...survived the whole afternoon, continue to allow my friends to distract me...I can't survive without them...lecture was a little bored...lame jokes...can't laughed...but i need to smile at least...the weather was okay...walk to station with friends...boarded the bus...felt worst...hot weather...burning my skin...came back..headed for the shower.Eat,still feeling hot..my throat~ Felt the soar there...and already...argh!!No...no time to fall sick...I'll be fine...going to take a nap...everything will be fine...

Oh...I think i knew why...tomorrow...results will be release...Now I know...it should be that...thats what keep me burning inside...okay..I better stop here...i think my tone is so flat here it bored u guys out...I can't help it...I'll come back when I feel better,right now I need to fall into a deep sleep~zzzzzzzzz~

3rd Semester!!

9.03am, going to OHR tutorial later...nothing to do and wanted some time here...Wee!! Can't deny,feeling rather excited in this new semester,had no idea why.Maybe I miss my friends so much,or maybe I was so so bored at home doing routine for one whole month! I'm not so sure..maybe both..yea...let it be both..and can I say...I miss studying too?Haha..I know I definitely take back my words in 2 weeks time.Yesterday was my 1st day for 3rd sem...So delighted to finally go out and feel the sun again,so excited to feel the the warm feeling being surrounded my my best mates,and of course some who greeted like they have really miss u!!Haha~Yea, I miss them too!


Morning tutorial was cancelled,so my 1st lecture was OHR.Our lecturer was a man,well at least I saw the enthuasism in him teaching us..although my girlfriends and I didn't really pay much attention to him ...Don't blame us, we were 1 month away from each other!There were definitely so much to talk about and I wish he wouldn't mind...he don't seem to...and anyway there weren't any lecture notes to look at...or even keep us busy with highlighting lines of words!

The other things I noticed were that everyone was in their best...moods were great,great outfits...happy chatters...their eyes were brightly lit and owh ~looking at their happy faces..I felt like smiling too..hmm~except for one..I don't know why and what was bothering him..he seem so tense..he only manages an unwilling smile and continued with his tense look on his face...but i wish him happiness...although I can't help...hope he'll feel better,no matter what is bothering him.=]

And oh...one my my friends decided to switch college and go the Melaka...so ..no matter what she do..I wish her all the best of luck..and yea..we'll miss her and hope she'll miss us too...Well,I think I better get going..it's my 1st OHR tutorial at ten and I'm a little curious to see our tutor for the 1st time...hehe....Buhbye~~~