stress!

It's already the end of week 7 of this semester. As usual, I'll be busy-ing with my flooding assignments and it never fails to make me feel like drowning. I'm so stress now. Keeping up with these are not easy, never easy for me. I sometimes feel useless when I don't understadn what FAP tutor is bla bla-ing in front. He looks at me, I look at him...I felt sorry for myself.He is such a good tutor..having a bad student. Coursework 1 spells hopelessness! I hate FAP! I hate accounts! but why i study this subject? I don't know ler...haiz!

PA assignment finally done. CLG is driving me mad! SO many things to read, so many things to write. Not sure whats going in...whatever. I just need to pour out here or else...I be kicking in my sleep...shouting....screaming..in frustration! Thank God I had this blog! Sorry guys, bear with my grumpy-ness these days! And these rainy, gloomy days isn't going to help~I'm going to continue my CLG assignment now.Wish everyone luck staying up late to finish these stuffs! Got CLG replacement tomorrow and GOD! It's another Saturday already! I have been dreaming a lot!! NITEZ~=(

everytime...

You never fail to make me feel better. I wished you could do this forever, no matter who we will be in the future. I just wish I could just reach to you whenever I need. I wished things wouldn't change and stay as beautiful . How impossible. How complicated. Things wouldn't be as I wanted, no matter how badly I wanted. Whatever it is, stay that way...for now. I wouldn't blame anyone if things change. I'll try to cope, try to build this fragile soul of mine. I believe I've done better now. Someone had told me to change or warned me at least,to be precised. Change for the better, try to look things at a different perspective. I'm trying, though not that hard. I like it that way...it's hard to change. As for you, I felt lucky having a friend like you. You did your best to make me feel better...but all I did was...just mere 'no care' attitude. Ill be that way, for a reason you will know in time to come. Bear with me. You'll never read this..you'll never know what I'm thinking. How sad...

They Made You!

Haish Haish..Bell Bell...wat is wrong again? Thanks to you lar! I wanted to lash back at you today..unintelligent things you have said today,second thought, I've decided your not worth anything...not even 1 % of my second...Dude...darn it!Live your life~ Now I know you are not worthy~*juz to pour out my annoyance I faced today, ignore me*

results out!

Should I celebrate this? Should I ?! Yeah..I think I should .NOt only me...of course.WEEEE should celebrate this time! HAish...the only sakit hati part is..I got B+ for english! Although I would like to blame that "someone"..but..it doesn't make any difference...ah! Okay....this is a miracle ...but hard work does pay...!

But, Yeah ..I know..this semester is tougher...I'm getting lazier ...but I can't hit the brakes..I want to accelerate! Friends ...lets accelerate together!^^
Love,
BEll

Oh...I can't stand these days any longer...What on earth is wrong with me these days? Feel like the earth had even stop turning again. Please please please...install me a new memory!If I can just tell you this....haish~I just know I won't. T___T continue to suffer >.< Focus lar Bell!!!

somethings better left unknown~

Aiks...just found out something that disturbed me..It shouldn't be...what is wrong with me?!
Why? I wanted to know, I should not wanted to know...wait...I should have not let this curiousity out of hand~Damn it...but why does it got to do with me?Stupid...but everyone has their own histories and stories right?..yeah.I should not be bothered...I wished..I can press the "delete" button in my head, right now~

emo~

Am I doing enough?
No, I need to compose myself,
Need to find a way out,
But ended up the same ground
round and round.

Am I a fool to think,
It will be over?
When the sun finally kiss my skin?
And dry my tears?
And wish it will turn to bliss?

Is this smiles suffice to hide this pain?
Or maybe you should just show me the way
out in the rain.
You will never understand these scars,
I've carried so far....

I wanna erase these memories,
But what if it doesn't go away,
Hunting me everyday,
I guessed I'll be okay,
A little more time...
It's gonna be okay...
Gonna be okay~