Sunday, January 23, 2011

Fed Up

Frustration begins again. This time, it is really bringing me down...a lot. Life isn't really what I have planned. Not at all. I hate this life, really. I can't explain why.I just hate it at this moment. This time is worst, coz I am not looking forward to anything at all....AT ALL.Everything sucks. Yes , I mean every single thing:'(

Tuesday, October 5, 2010

I lost it. Shit.

Crying my eyes out. I lost it. I was happy when I passed the freaking tax paper. With an ugly C. But then again, I still lost it. Really dissapointed.........T_____T

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I trust you.

I'm on my way to believing. Don't let me down.

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

The communication barrier.

And so I thought. I thought that communication barrier only exist between me and my mum, or my dad, or granny ,grandpa...or alien. But guess what I found out? I had communication barrier with you! We suppose to get along well, same generation right. WRONG! I am wrong. Most of the time I don't get what you are trying to tell me. and I am sure same goes to you. Most of the time I hear you talk, and try my best not to yawn ...and of course tried to understand you better b asking you questions. But when I talk, you obviously showed you had no interest or what so ever, making me losing the interest to share whatever amazing with you. I don't blame you. We are d.i.f.f.e.r.e.n.t.! I saw it coming in the first place. Just never know it came so soon. I thought I will be able to cope. Turns out I'm wrong. It's like I'm from a different planet. I don't know. It keeps me wondering why we get along in the first place and only the stupid annoying differences appear after........we get to know each other "better". I feel alienated from whatever topic you are trying to say. Sorry, I don't know how to say this but, it seems like we are from totally different dimension. Seems like a petty issue but it annoys me badly. Instead of trying too hard, to understand you, I decide to talk to you again when you have some time to spare for me. I usually don't have this kind of problem. I'm just trying to find out why.

Maybe I miss you.

It's probably the 2nd time in a month, I dreamt. About you and I. The weirdest thing was, in the dream, I will run towards you and give you a hug. Having my both arms around you made me want to cry. It's the warmth that I longed for. Or maybe... I miss you. But why, you? Since we graduated from high school,I only met you occasionally. Charming like always, with tones of friends. Thats what you are. You are one amazing person ever entered my life. I remember we talked about our lives. You had amazing dreams, and you managed to change something bad to something we looked forward. As I talked about mine, I cried. And it was your shoulder I cried on. I remembered it well. I felt I was the luckiest person on earth having someone to talked and hug. I don't know how, you just have that amazing aura in you. I was constantly inspired by you. Somehow, things changed. I don't agree with you at times, but being a close friend to you, I chose to support you all the way. And the dream I had, it's a proof that I still care about you. I wanna tell you that certain decisions that u make sometimes are really haste decisions. I worried that it might hurt you back later in life. I really hope that you know that you deserve better and make right decisions. You have so many friends,you might have forgotten about me, but I know I miss you. But, rest assured. You won't get to know about this, because isn't it too awkward to ask you..., ' Do you ever miss me too?'

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

I'm back, journal.

DAC 4 will be the best!

Yieh Yieh and me...^^

Throw up high,reach for the sky!

JY Loong. I miss your Avanza.=)

So yeah, thats some of the Graduation pictures.
I came back. I knew I would. I did had the thought of abandoning this blog. But, fact is, I need it. Times like this make me think more, more to crap about everything. I have graduated. * Hooray...I actually graduated!!!Hurm... Advanced is tough. And it's not a piece of cake. It's really a hard nut to crack. But I'm still breathing. I don't vomit that often anymore, Exams phobia is already in control althought I did felt my head spinning just before my English paper. And yeah Tax. tax, Just that, there is too much..just tooo much to remember. Damn, thinking back, I think I screwed up the paper. Did I...I don't know really. I can't figure out what I was doing...I just kept on writing and to finish the paper was my main objective. So, I pray I'll pass. I have to pass, or scholarship will just go down the drain, my effort in Diploma will just be flushed down the toilet bowl. Life is really kicking in now, and I can see the bright skies now, and for some reason the rain don't bother me that much now. ...I'm really glad. Most of all, somehow I still miss DAC 4 really bad. We had somehow became like a close family and after 2 years we have to separate. I had a really hard time coping you know. Anyway, found new friends this sem, and it's not all that bad. Time will definitely make another new bonding. We'll never know. I'm loving this life already. Cheers~=)

Tuesday, May 11, 2010


Final results came out... Feel relieved that everything is done and happy I did not accidently fail my Tamadun paper. I got A- for that. Hehe...Also happy that Business software watever ware is that I don't care...also able to get an A. So..hooray~~skips and jump! I'm almost a diploma graduate! Can't believe it. Everthing is done. It's time for the next level, and I've realised I had more responsibilities now.. yesh...I do. And this responsibility made me realise I have a beautiful life. I'm learning to love my life now...whatever it takes...thanks to you.=)