Bell...control~

Bah...it's been 2 days in a row...My mood swings.Duh! And the rain...
Almost lose my temper today,a sincere apology,but I did my best not to speak too much when I'm angry,but some people are really good at heating up your blood to the boiling point and almost blow up your veins...

Luckily,GOD created ice-cream.Cooling my system down again...Nice ~and luckily GOD created my friends,we laughed at nothing but silly jokes...and sharing that cup of mango-soya,guava-mango ice,haha^^
And..I would like to thank them ...because of constant 'yumcha' session,I'm actually gaining weight!wee~~

And..finally..exam slips came to me...having 2 "ambigous' subjects! I don't know how to describe it but...OHR paper,I am seriously not sure whether to believe Sir or not.This term-'no return' and 'I don't "yam" people one' scares me a lot! How true is that?and another'read for fun'?Okay~he may think that it makes people have sweet dreams at night but...I'm worried.Plus...another thing that is bothering me,I'm not studying enough yet.Don't know why,I just DON'T!So used to doing thing at the last minute...only to cry blood at the end...Can't pull myself away from watching America's Next Top Model and Janice Dickinson's Modelling Agency.!

To make matters worse,the rain...uh!Yuck~whatever...have to bear with it! I only have a few days to go...and my adrenaline isn't rushing yet...what is wrong with me?!?!

Awesome Nineteen!

Woot!6 April 2009!Best Burpday ever!Thanking all my besties and everyone who made this so memorable! Did not expect them to do this,but YES ofcz...was touched to tears...*erm ,tissues pls...*Really,....appreciate this a lot!

Wow! They were good at this.A surprise B'day!!Definitely a great and unforgetable 1one! Wanna thank everyone that day for making my birthday a memorable one!What can I say?I'm was speechless and happy^^

My girlfrens n me...n the prezzies^^

Siow Jun,the 'Yeng' one...

Jia Yit,the Q and lovely one...

Julia...the...childish one...

Jas,.....the...the....erm....ET?haha=]

Zi Wei,the Q n Q n Q one!!hehe;]

Peace~^^





Arigatou again...to my besties who bought a Kawaii shirt for me...and yes it was too kawaii...sked it doesn't look good on me,haha..but decide to try on something different sometimes..TQ!!!Thanks again to Rachel n the gang,Winnie,Lee Teng and Vivian,for Edward..haha,I mean the DVD and of course the big poster*now ,Edward visits me in my bedroom every night now~^^*And Michael and Wei Jian,the red hair,thanks for the book...it's all about Edward LOL~Appreciate it a lots....and of cz the Secret Recipe rasberry cheesecake*gonna upload the pic soon...*and..and...everyone with their thoughtful wishes!*sobs*oh..and the KFC !!thanks for allowing us to mess up the place...and most importantly...my family^^Love u guys lotz!!Mwaks!!Not good at expressing myself here~*blush*

Oh...gotta get going...I'm late again!Gonna leave this blog alone for awhile...at least after catching up on some study on OHR and PF!Burpdays over...now...gotta start moving~cz exams haunting !!All the best to everyone who is facing the coming exams!GamBateh!!^^

Love,

Bell.

P.S: I want to quit smoking ...but...

still puffing away~

Ergh...how many times I said this to myself...that I want to do this...quit...QuiT!!! But...somebody help me please!! I can't! Bell ,QUIT!!QUIT SMOKING!!

Okay~I can imagine your jaws dropping to the floor now.Let me make it clear ..but first...mind closing the gap of your jaws?Thank you=]

Today...took the LRT to terminal and waited for the bus.Glad,wee~there was the sun,there is not many people...I was alone...scared but fine~Then came 2 guys,probably around my age,sat next to me,throwing glances as they settled down.I just continued to engross in the beautiful tune of YUI-Blue Wind.And then...this 2 guys started to smoking...ERGH!!! It happens everytime ! I can't sit and wait for the bus peacefully..I can't stand it..the smell of cigarettes..it makes me want more! I'm ADDICTED!!! I'm tempted!

OH no!..I'm just kidding*compensation on missed April Fool's Day^^*I can't stand it...it suffocates me..I get angry,annoyed to be precise. I decided to sit further away...Then,just 5 seconds passed,came a middle-age man,sat in front of me and started puffing away...ARRRRGGGGH!!!TAK TAHAN LAH!!!!...Turn left...an old man was doing the same...turn right, taxi drivers did the same..LOL,as if I were the only one a non-smoker there!

Then I decided to find a place further away...good. I was separated from these puffers by the soft drink dispenser there...great...and continued listening to my MP4...See why I can't quit,everywhere I go...they were there..puffing away..and puffing out dirty air from their lungs right into our dear fragile lungs!For goodness sake,I totally hate it when I am forced to breath their stinking breath when I was having my meals..DAMN!Polluting the air! I am forced to become a secondary smoker!YIKES!!!YUCKS!!If they just smoke lesser,i believe the air pollution wouldn't be so bad right?To make matters worse,while chatting with a friend just a moment ago,he confessed that he started puffing too! I wonder if he would just quit it before it's too late...

Alright,I can't tell them not to smoke if they want to continue burning their money,blackening their lungs~Okay...since I didn't blog a few days ago,I still remember what I suppose to report to you guys what exactly I did on Earth Hour..yea,that 1 hour.I went back hometown,and I can't tell my grandparents to turn off the lights,so when it was 8.30pm,I was suppose to go to bath..but...remembering the Earth Hour,I decided not to bath first, and convinced my parents that we should go out for dinner instead...So,lights were off...we went for dinner...turned off my handphone for 1 hour.Haha..that was what I did..anyway,my father joked that we did our part by switching off the lights in our home*since we were away*LOL~did that even count?no idea!!

Extra-OrDinary~

Great day...good weather,the sun shines~ It suppose to be just another day...but finally had a chance to collect my SPM cert with the courtesy of my highschool good friend. Was lucky,it was his last sem break that day. Woot! Haven't seen him for such a long time,it's so hard when someone is so VIP you know...the last time I saw him was in LRT station ,3rd Nov last year. He had losed so much weight,no more the Chubby guy .*he used to have baby cheeks in highschool*.The only thing he still has ,was his sense of humour which never failed to make me laugh*he used to drop by our class and make havoc!haha~juz kiddin*[wink wink]I know why...haha~shh~~

And so, we went to school...nothing much change, really...still the same building, a little renovation here and there, and a lot of unfamiliar faces.Imagine...we used to study here!Our alma mater!Took the cert ..duh!Okay...it doesn't hurt that much anymore.Went hunting for my brother to tell him he won't have to sit the bus that day...he must be so happy^^.On the way leaving, he exclaimed,"Where is the big tree?",there used to be a big tree opposite our front gate of the school,for whatever reason,they cut it down ...so students won't have the urge to take their time off by puffing their cigarettes there,I guessed.

Decided to go for lunch,manage to kacau Racheal at her home beforehand.LOLx~So...if I'm not mistaken,I remembered that this good friend of mine pantang whenever he sees anyone talks while eating. Well ...just to annoy him,I did just that...haha~He didn't say anything! In fact, we just kept chatting...oops!Bad habit~ He insisted on paying for the lunch that day,since he is working...and at the same time being a gentleman...*wao,isn't it hard being a guy sometimes?*I don't know about that!

I really feel bad,coz he caught me looking at my watch a dozen times while eating.Hmm~He just told me to relax...teasing me about being a Cinderella *when midnight strikes thingy?*Just wanted him to know that I'm sorry for being such .."ergh"!and I'm glad meeting him after so long,he still that happy-go-lucky guy!

Okay,let's call it a day.Gotta catch up on my PF.Having coursework next Monday!Haven't understand a damn thing! Again~thanks Teik Ghee for a great day^^

Turn off the lights!! [28th March 2009]

Only we can save our earth!

Aiks..feeling so lazy to blog...but I have something to say...about Earth Hour?
Yea...I'm suppose to feel guilty here..honestly,I'm not really into this earth thingy...No~Don't get me wrong...I might not be joining any activity that relates to "earth conserving" but...I don't leave my room without turning off the lights...,I don't leave the tap water on while brushing my teeth,*but I take time to wash my hair* LOL~

Oh so...actually,honestly...I have already decided to turn off my lights... on 28th of March in conjuction of the Earth Hour.I was so..urm how to describe?So..."semangat"if that what you decide to call it...However...now,again..I think I would feel guilty again...brr~Okay,how am I to explain this...Imagine turning off the lights and tell your grandpa and granma that the power station have cut off the electricity.Imagine sitting in the dark with them and expecting them to do nothing,their shining eyeballs looking back at you in the dark,and scaring the hell out of ourselves..OMG!I would do just that ,*turning off everything, including my hp*if I were to stay here..but, the thing is..I'm leaving for my hometown...to wateva u call it..not "celebrate"haha but...*i'm trying to find the right term for this,and still trying*[stop laughing Jas,at least help me to find the right term okay?]haha..it's damn funny by the way...oh..I'm going back hometown to ______ "cheng meng"..[pls,help me fill in the blanks with the right term]

Okay,maybe I should just stop finding lame excuses...If I were to turn off the lights,tell me...give me some ideas on what to do...what I should do.Not getting to surf the net in kampung is bad enough...and then this 1 hour...I can't read my Eclipse!!Okay,maybe I have mistaken 1 hour is equals to 60 minutes equals to 3600 seconds for 1 day!Well,it's just 1 hour!
It's not that hard after all ryte?But ...how about granpa and granma?!Okay,they probably think that we ,young people got nothing better to do...nevermind..whatever it is...off my hp,rest my ears from my MP4,turn off the idiot boxand the radio...so.."Bell can't be reach from 8.30pm till 9.30pm on 28th March!"and I'll be back to write about what exactly I did..during that 1 hour!A romantic candlelight dinner maybe?with granpa granma,perhaps?haha~unpredictably crazy!!See ya~Again...support Earth Hour! It's the least we can do to save our EARTH!!!MOTHER NATURE!!!

Like any other day~

7.52am , to be exact...again I amazed myself.The fact that I don't find trouble dozing off the night before even thought I woke up at about 11am yesterday,and went back for a nap at 2.30pm and woke up to say bye bye to the sun, it was already 7.30pm!Duh,maybe he was right after all,"izit the time of the month?"haha~oh...that explains it all...It drained my energy too...

Feeling so guilty now,for not completing tutorials...laziness is haunting me again!
Can't believe this..My eyes ...feel like going back to sleep again~*yawns*Okay,until now,I didn't receive any message telling me that PF is cancel...so I guess our plan is goin on~~*cheers*mm~~fries at last!*only those who is involved knows what I'm talking about*

Okay~there he is again...I think I can't expect to be alone even at this early hour...*when my eyes are still struggling to open*alright maybe it's the lullaby playing on my friendster profile...can't remember how many dozen times I replayed it...it's so beautiful...very ,very,beautiful...drowning me again and again,and I like the way it drowns me and I feel it ...to the point I felt like I'm in heaven ~*maybe it's just me* It's one of the theme song in Twilight,yes,the vampire movie.It's called Bella's Lullaby ,in actual fact, the title of this song is called "River Flows In You"by Yiruma.It is piano played and that made it more beautiful...
I wanted this song so badly...I want to listen to it every night~*ZiWei~u got that song for me already?*[ I bugged her to get me this song,btw thanks ^^]

I better get going now,having PF tutorial at 10...wait let me check to see if there is 1 miss call or 1 message...haha~I'm LATE!!

L.O.S.T

Title: L.O.S.T~


Lost myself today,
Trying to run away,
From confusions to illusions.

Went out through a door,
To feel better,
Didn't expect it to become so unfamiliar.

Alone,I was...
Trying to find the answer,
But I can't think any further,
I was almost a loser.

Standing there still,
Not sure if I should follow the crowd,
To get out,
Or take my own path.

But this insecurity,
Made me cringe,
Wonder if I would only run around in circles,
And end up in tears.

Maybe I was lucky,
To have found my way...
Looking at their faces,
This fears went away...

But I am still afraid,
What if I lost myself again?
What if I'll never find my way,
Like today?

~ 5.03pm~