RIP ,MJ~

A sudden wave of sadness hit me when I heard the news on the national radio early this morning,Michael Jackson had passed on...Yes,no mistake ,unless this is a joke,*I hope*our one and only 'KING OF POP' has passed away on 25th of June 2009.Remembering back ,he was our idol,possibly everyones's idol...even from our parents' generation,he is a legendary in this big wide world ...ask anyone,anyone at all...that have been a normal person since he or she was born in to this world,they should ,sure know MJ...
I can't help it,I remembered ,we learn to appreciate his songs...or even his 'moonwalk' when we watch his videos.I even remembered , when I did spent the holidays in my cousin'd place,he used to play MJ's video, and even replayed one part of the video ,*i don't remember which one exactly* but it was the scene where MJ jump on a car and zipped up his zipper.Why,it is not funny now?Most important of all,it grew up with us,it is so hard to accept this news.I know the rest of the world would hit by this shocking news later in the afternoon,or night~
I regretted having to hear various news on this Pop King during his not so good stage of life.He had a sad childhood and then he grew famous,and even got into several court cases regarding child molestation.I bet all of this are a mere bad intentions of some uncivilised parties who are dying to earn fast bucks.I felt sorry for him.Watch him grew and fall...and..now ,gone.It's a great loss indeed.
Whatever it is,MJ will live...in our little hearts.Lets say a little prayer for him.Rest In Peace,MJ~

Lurve you dad!

Dad,you might not have the chance to read this,but..haish.Tomorrow is Daddy's Day~I feel so hopeless now.So occupied with my own troubles...didn't say these 3 words to you for so long...maybe you will never know...maybe I never will~But..I LOVE U every single day...of my life even ur rules seem unintelligent to me sometimes...
I know you sensed I was not happy,but..I'm totally fine...this route is hard,but I'm hanging on~please hold on to my hands and lead me on...
I love you dad...and you better know that..Happy Puppy's Day!~
Wishing all dads a wonderful day...everyday~^^

Oh No! Burning out!

It's Flyday...YAhoo!But ..damn maybe it's the rain ,maybe the pressure,the stress and everything that had been bothering me lately made me sick!I'm down with a sore throat ,a mild one..and a flu.Oh no..shit!This can't be..I can't be sick now..NOT NOW!!Assignments been hunting~Okay think positive..right. I'm expecting a really sexy voice tomorrow or so..so,I should be grateful,YEAH!Or..maybe...become tottally mute tomorrow.Thank GOD,it's Saturday tomorrow and I really need some serious sleeping. I'm having sleep-deprivation! or ...maybe excessive sleeping,I don't know !I don't care! I just need some sleep!

Aww~today got every chance I had to get the power nap while lecture,can't hold my head up!Duh,having headache.Then wake up,realised i had a mile sorethroat.Cry out loud,I should have.I kept drinking water,keep visiting the loo...Stupid..now only start drink water,no use...sai hei la..went home and shower ,straight go to slumberland~and juz about to doze off,thinking too much,maybe...dreams again~Everything seem like summary of the day...my friends talking,lectures...can't think anymore...zzzzzzzzz~

Hah~I said I would write something good this time...must fulfill~Nothing much but...nice one.Yesterday,had 4 hours break coz MAF tutorial cancelled,went to Monkey's place haha*hope she doesn't read this*and force her to put in many many sad songs for me...haha,emo-ing la,wat else?Then Jia Yit keep finding happy songs for me and scolding Siow Chin for introducing me sad songs...hahaha~like I know what the songs means,duh!Thanks both of you for making me delete most of my songs from my MP4 to put in new songs!Deleted some Jay Chou's old album..huhu T__T but..these new songs very 'lam' ah..so thanks a lots!^^Okay skip this part...

12.30pm,hungry ler me, wanna eat that cheesy wedges!Went Jusco lo...*skip this part*...Having MIS lecture at 2 duh! Take cab ler,malas to walk la...Ah, got taxi there...then this guy came and open the taxi door straight away...I was like...'wat the!'okay~then I heard him asking the driver TAR college?yeah , I should have known better..Tarc students got their own signature face ler...*apart from me la,hehe*So..since same destination,we go together lo~Then I ask him whether he like to stop at back gate or front,he said he had no problem with both...so since DKB o...back gate lor....shuang dao..no need walk so far ler.Arrived finally...RM 3.40 ar?how to kira wor?I calculate ler...haish 90sumething cents for 1?aiks headache! Dun wan calculate.."how muc ler?"I asked...He smile and say..."it's okay...no problem"..wat u mean no problem?U have problem calculating too?no..that not what he meant,he say no need pay lo...Wah...really bo?Then I say.."No,wait..." But this gentleman ar..he say no need wor...U sure?He say Yea... and just continue walking ....My friends and I exchange glances...We were all spellbound .Eh,still got so nice people in this world?My friends also don't believe...yalar...wer can believe people so easily now er?Suan...this guy..memang good one...at least he left good impression la,so I'm keeping this good impression. I remember he was wearing a yellow shirt,a black bag...but..his feature was a common clean-cut guy,with glasses.Hmm~not sure if we'll meet him again..or if I would recognise him but...at least,we know he's a Tarcian ...thats all about this stranger...God bless him please =]

Went to lecture ler...sit behind lor...MIS so boring...Aiks...finished around 4pm.God loves me..raining jor...didn't bring umbrella..Lucky Jia Yit lease to me ,FOC...but..jia guo..oso get wet coz not enough energy to open the stubborn umbrella,the bus came ..so just run there ler...so 'LUCKY'this people ar..go up bus only take time to find money.LOL~what to do..stand outside lor..enjoy showers of blessing~and the CONCLUSION...sick jor ~Ahhhhhhhhh~~~ah ChEeee!

Okay ...that is for 3rd week...and seriously,I am burning out.Subjects this sem are going to be dead tough and sadly...I know...I won't be able to do it..I know..I just know it. I'm on my own now.Growing up is a pain.Despite,assignments overflooding soon, me..wanting so much to watch The Last Vampire,and of course 17 Again...another must watch movie!And...of course...FA assignment,a 'Must do' priority. Another ..Tax,'Must understand' subject.Law,a 'Must memorise' sections.DUH! DUH!Urm ,okay mom...don't worry...I'm gonna take my panadol soluble and I'm gonna recover soon enough*she just called from Ipoh*.And before I start doodling my 5cm-thick textbook,let me listen to one last song~singing"Everybody!Put up your hands say I don't wanna study law,I don't wanna study law!"*to the tune of Good Charlotte-Say I don't wanna be in love.

Stepping forward...

I'm finally done with my first dreadful week.Not so bad ler...Business Law is what I expected it to be,definitely an alien language,definitely a killer subject.Basic Tax was no better,though the lecturer was a sweet one...I find it rather confusing ...and I'm wondering if anyone else is as blur as me.Anyone? I guess it's just me. I'm feeling so hopeless,moody. And this confusions isn't doing me any good. My temper got worse lately.Ugh! Big Time! Sorry ..if anyone out there became my prey last week and these few days...especially this guy,again...I'm very sorry.*he never will read my blog though*.But having ur butterfly clip pulled out from ur hair especially when you require a good 15 minutes to put in on was really...ugh! You know what I mean..If I'm lucky,5 minutes will do...but...apparently...seldom~So..my hair..don't touch! And there the other one...ugh!why ?why !on earth would you asked me questions you know I can't answer?!!? So..I'm not in the mood to answer your *somakingpeopleblush* questions. Maybe other time...I'll probably come up with better answers to make you stop asking.*ergh!!regretted not punching you*


Yesterday,was on Basic Tax lecture and our sweet lecturer definitely tried her very best to explain things..sections and yeah...duno wat Para28..wateva!And then students started to flood her with questions during break time.Poor lecturer...our minds went too far*as she said*and made ourselves confuse by thinking too much.Haha.I didn't...In fact,I had no idea what the whole thing is all about!What's up with the so many sections thingy?!And who cares how many days we stay in the country?And..and...why more than ..less than 182 days?!OMG!who on earth set this rules for me to remember?Haha...maybe my mind was the slowest in the hall..not working,*severe brain damage,maybe*Everyone else was asking question I don't understand what they don't understand...what is wrong with me?!Owh...I'm doomed~

And...yeah...I probably have less time to blog now...maybe this is the last..for now...I don't know. Entering Business Law on 9.30...Bell,open ur eyes! God...I pray..pray for a strong tutor to lead us this blind road... I'm hanging on now...but I don't know how long...

Got to get my butt outta here now,it's frezzing cold in this library. I'll hope to crap better stories the next time I write...for now..bear with my frustrating stupid tales.
P.S:Don't miss me!=]

SOBS...

Got my 3rd sem results on Wednesday....I supposed to jump on my feet and celebrate...I got As for both papers...definitely not like me. Expecting a B+ for OHR paper since there is one question I tottally crap out.PF ,I had no idea...no doubt,I was quite surprise*but I secretly wondered if they have made a mistake*shh~

But have you ever believe,everytime a good news comes...there's a sad news? I wouldn't want to believe it...but for me it always been this way...
One of my friends have to pick a different path and that means...hanging out with less one person in my group of friends...It will take some time for me to get use to it..but I know I have to accept the fact...the way I wanted her to be strong.We will always fell that abscence of her...and will miss the time we had together...Ice-creams,Mc Donald,KFC... Luckily...had the chance to have lunch with her before she go...and send her till LRT station...

I don't want to write anymore...damn sad ler~Wish her the best of life and hope to meet her again...=[ *gonna miss you so much gurl~*

The next 14 weeks...

Today,I be going back to college after almost a decade having holidays.Holidays this time aren't that bad coz despite the recession,I have been spending more than I thought.Of course..I'm under control...I'm buying now coz I know the next 14 weeks would be a great mental and physical torture and I am doing it to store as much endorphins and other good feeling hormones in my system.But I know I'm gonna use it up in just on week...yeah one week or two is enough to drain me. Yes..I am that weak..or lazy perhaps.

But when college starts ..I would probably think twice before buying. It's hard..I think I should start to hate this one word that is almost everywhere=SALE!. I hate SALEs!!!NO ,second thought it's damn hard to hate this word...yesterday was my last day to shop and I only bought a few things...that is necessary. And spent my time at the car exhibition in Curve,Damansara longer than I should coz my dream car was waiting for me there...as fair as always ...I peered into the window...so wanted to test drive..Ergh!And there was other cars too...but not so interested...

And so,the next 14 weeks...having 6 subjects..have no idea how deadly it is this time...but my Sis warned.."This 6 subjects are tough"yeah I know... what to feel?And when the day after tommorow comes...I feel like puking already ...results...I should have got use to that ryte?Nope,not at all!

Long Lost ~

Goth-Ticks


As the music plays,
My pearls starts falling,
Like river flows,
With no curfews,
No conclusion,
Because everything is in dead silence,
Come on…its not like we’re dead,
Pour it out before it is too late…
The deadly weapon,
Slitting through my skin,
In a minute or two,
There will be no more pain,
I know you think its lame,
But its definately not plain…
What do you wish to see,
When you wake up next morning,
the pitch dark parade,
Or the bright sun shades,
Its your heartless words,
Not the blade,
Which pierced through my heart,
And made it sink down the seabed…
Its everything in my head now,
There is no use turning back,
Because its too late,
Farewell…let us just bade…

Got nothing to do....

browse throuhg my friendster profile and realize how dead it had been...

browse through my dumb blog in there and wanted to delete it...

but second though,I might just leave it that way...some things can't be erase just pressing the "delete"button...

took out this poem form my old blog...

written it when I was.."duno what I was thinking"

enjoy it...if u can~