Today,I be going back to college after almost a decade having holidays.Holidays this time aren't that bad coz despite the recession,I have been spending more than I thought.Of course..I'm under control...I'm buying now coz I know the next 14 weeks would be a great mental and physical torture and I am doing it to store as much endorphins and other good feeling hormones in my system.But I know I'm gonna use it up in just on week...yeah one week or two is enough to drain me. Yes..I am that weak..or lazy perhaps.
But when college starts ..I would probably think twice before buying. It's hard..I think I should start to hate this one word that is almost everywhere=SALE!. I hate SALEs!!!NO ,second thought it's damn hard to hate this word...yesterday was my last day to shop and I only bought a few things...that is necessary. And spent my time at the car exhibition in Curve,Damansara longer than I should coz my dream car was waiting for me there...as fair as always ...I peered into the window...so wanted to test drive..Ergh!And there was other cars too...but not so interested...
And so,the next 14 weeks...having 6 subjects..have no idea how deadly it is this time...but my Sis warned.."This 6 subjects are tough"yeah I know... what to feel?And when the day after tommorow comes...I feel like puking already ...results...I should have got use to that ryte?Nope,not at all!
Monday, May 25, 2009
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Long Lost ~
Goth-Ticks
As the music plays,
My pearls starts falling,
Like river flows,
With no curfews,
No conclusion,
Because everything is in dead silence,
Come on…its not like we’re dead,
Pour it out before it is too late…
The deadly weapon,
Slitting through my skin,
In a minute or two,
There will be no more pain,
I know you think its lame,
But its definately not plain…
What do you wish to see,
When you wake up next morning,
the pitch dark parade,
Or the bright sun shades,
Its your heartless words,
Not the blade,
Which pierced through my heart,
And made it sink down the seabed…
Its everything in my head now,
There is no use turning back,
Because its too late,
Farewell…let us just bade…
Got nothing to do....
browse throuhg my friendster profile and realize how dead it had been...
browse through my dumb blog in there and wanted to delete it...
but second though,I might just leave it that way...some things can't be erase just pressing the "delete"button...
took out this poem form my old blog...
written it when I was.."duno what I was thinking"
enjoy it...if u can~
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
The Rain~
As the saying goes...'Absence makes the heart grows fonder'...I could agree..for now.If you've been living in klang valley,definitely you will notice how hot the weather has become,and it's driving people crazy! To make things worse...it is like that for 2 weeks or more without a drop of rain! Fortunately...today,the sun suddenly decides to give way to the clouds...
I missed the rain,very suprisingly,I miss the way it fell on my skin,the way it makes me wet,the way it drenched my clothes and the way it made me sneeze.Today,I felt it again.I can't believe how good it felt to feel the rain water on me again...and it was raining cats and dogs!! Don't get me wrong ...I did not go out in the rain to play rain water even if I so badly wanted to...I was taking in all the clothes just in time...when the rain suddenly gets so heavy I stood there to watch the beauty of the rain and breath in some air and enjoying the sound of the rain falling....
And the rain just stopped ...I wish it would rain again tonight,when I sleep...hopefully so I could sleep well tonight and not have yesterdays' nightmares...wat if it really happens?! I'm terrified!
I missed the rain,very suprisingly,I miss the way it fell on my skin,the way it makes me wet,the way it drenched my clothes and the way it made me sneeze.Today,I felt it again.I can't believe how good it felt to feel the rain water on me again...and it was raining cats and dogs!! Don't get me wrong ...I did not go out in the rain to play rain water even if I so badly wanted to...I was taking in all the clothes just in time...when the rain suddenly gets so heavy I stood there to watch the beauty of the rain and breath in some air and enjoying the sound of the rain falling....
And the rain just stopped ...I wish it would rain again tonight,when I sleep...hopefully so I could sleep well tonight and not have yesterdays' nightmares...wat if it really happens?! I'm terrified!
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Holidays!!
I'm better at playing peek-a-boo!
stealing the pao.haha~Oops! I did it again...started to abandone my blog...sorry to whoever out there who checked out my blog and find the same old boring posts...my apology~fortunately,I am back ..and yes with something to write...
Exams were over a week or so...was feeling off with an "exam fever" but felt so much better now! Strange but true...I don't really fancied holidays...no,not long ones...2 weeks is more than enough. I tend to feel too lazy to do anything adn tend to think too much...like..'what was I living for?'...Like I said...I will fall to a lazy mode and find life boring...
But,one day after the last paper,albeit feeling super exhausted from the exams,my family decided to go up Genting.Went up there about 11.30am, and checked in about 1. Glad my siblings and I decided not to spend our time in the theme park*got bored with the things there already*and I think I would throw up if I go up the 'space shot'!.Instead we walk around the big shopping heaven,mom and dad went to shop for shoes while I just walk around blurring..half -sleeping.Then about 5pm dad sugested we take the bus to a temple 2 to 3km away,if I'm not mistaken,it's called Chin Swee Temple. Boy,I wished the trip was longer coz I almost doze-off in that 15 minutes ride. But,no regrets,the air was cooling there. We walked around,and then it started to drizzle a little bit. We did not get the chance to check out the whole place but the place was beautiful and peace. Went back to First World and had our dinner.Glad I was already able to eat!^^
After dinner ,walk around again...before calling it a day. Hate to take bath coz it was cold and it is almost not necessary to bath but have to..hmm~Got to bed almost immediately,passing the whole day almost without knowing what was going on*still on a blur mode*Unfortunately,I did not get a good night sleep,I always don't especially in foreign places. I kept waking up ,wondering where I was!
Rest of the weeks were fine...bored!And finally Saturday,went to cousins' place,force him to let me play 'left4dead' and check out some of his animes.Sunday,went down Seremban to visit my granma. She made 'paos' for us...and I can't stop wondering how she is going to continue living in that old flat with mosquitos constantly attacking our blood veins! Solute!Brought in a mosquito in our car on the way home despite rushing in the car and shutting the door as fast as lightning. And ..it ended up dying in my hands,with my blood of course!
And oh! Yesterday,Tuesday was the best day of my holidays till now. Went shopping in Sunway Pyramid...Ooh~which girl on earth wouldn't love that! Need a dress for my cousin brother's wedding that is around the corner so thats a good excuse for shopping ryte?Instead..yeah,end up with other clothes as well...gonna feel guilty till next month~~But,duh!how good it felt! How often I get to do this?!And, and Guess what?!! If anyone of you been following this reality program 'One In A Million',you should know Esther from Sabah. We met her there! At first we just watched her passed by,not sure if it was her,and then when we sat down to rest,again she walked pass..so,my mom was like 'hello ,Esther!'And we shoke hands with her..SWEET!^^Dazzling!
Oh..I love Sunway Pyramid ,it was 9pm so soon and I told my sis that we have yet stroll the whole shopping centre! It was so huge and there are so many things to see and shop! I wish I had more cash..but..fact is I don't!!Nevermind...I shopped within my budget..and I think it's enough ...My dad commented,"I can see you look happy today~" haha~~why shouldn't I be?Give me more $$ and I'l be happier !LOLxxx~
Exams were over a week or so...was feeling off with an "exam fever" but felt so much better now! Strange but true...I don't really fancied holidays...no,not long ones...2 weeks is more than enough. I tend to feel too lazy to do anything adn tend to think too much...like..'what was I living for?'...Like I said...I will fall to a lazy mode and find life boring...
But,one day after the last paper,albeit feeling super exhausted from the exams,my family decided to go up Genting.Went up there about 11.30am, and checked in about 1. Glad my siblings and I decided not to spend our time in the theme park*got bored with the things there already*and I think I would throw up if I go up the 'space shot'!.Instead we walk around the big shopping heaven,mom and dad went to shop for shoes while I just walk around blurring..half -sleeping.Then about 5pm dad sugested we take the bus to a temple 2 to 3km away,if I'm not mistaken,it's called Chin Swee Temple. Boy,I wished the trip was longer coz I almost doze-off in that 15 minutes ride. But,no regrets,the air was cooling there. We walked around,and then it started to drizzle a little bit. We did not get the chance to check out the whole place but the place was beautiful and peace. Went back to First World and had our dinner.Glad I was already able to eat!^^
After dinner ,walk around again...before calling it a day. Hate to take bath coz it was cold and it is almost not necessary to bath but have to..hmm~Got to bed almost immediately,passing the whole day almost without knowing what was going on*still on a blur mode*Unfortunately,I did not get a good night sleep,I always don't especially in foreign places. I kept waking up ,wondering where I was!
Rest of the weeks were fine...bored!And finally Saturday,went to cousins' place,force him to let me play 'left4dead' and check out some of his animes.Sunday,went down Seremban to visit my granma. She made 'paos' for us...and I can't stop wondering how she is going to continue living in that old flat with mosquitos constantly attacking our blood veins! Solute!Brought in a mosquito in our car on the way home despite rushing in the car and shutting the door as fast as lightning. And ..it ended up dying in my hands,with my blood of course!
And oh! Yesterday,Tuesday was the best day of my holidays till now. Went shopping in Sunway Pyramid...Ooh~which girl on earth wouldn't love that! Need a dress for my cousin brother's wedding that is around the corner so thats a good excuse for shopping ryte?Instead..yeah,end up with other clothes as well...gonna feel guilty till next month~~But,duh!how good it felt! How often I get to do this?!And, and Guess what?!! If anyone of you been following this reality program 'One In A Million',you should know Esther from Sabah. We met her there! At first we just watched her passed by,not sure if it was her,and then when we sat down to rest,again she walked pass..so,my mom was like 'hello ,Esther!'And we shoke hands with her..SWEET!^^Dazzling!
Oh..I love Sunway Pyramid ,it was 9pm so soon and I told my sis that we have yet stroll the whole shopping centre! It was so huge and there are so many things to see and shop! I wish I had more cash..but..fact is I don't!!Nevermind...I shopped within my budget..and I think it's enough ...My dad commented,"I can see you look happy today~" haha~~why shouldn't I be?Give me more $$ and I'l be happier !LOLxxx~
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
Bell...control~
Bah...it's been 2 days in a row...My mood swings.Duh! And the rain...
Almost lose my temper today,a sincere apology,but I did my best not to speak too much when I'm angry,but some people are really good at heating up your blood to the boiling point and almost blow up your veins...
Luckily,GOD created ice-cream.Cooling my system down again...Nice ~and luckily GOD created my friends,we laughed at nothing but silly jokes...and sharing that cup of mango-soya,guava-mango ice,haha^^
And..I would like to thank them ...because of constant 'yumcha' session,I'm actually gaining weight!wee~~
And..finally..exam slips came to me...having 2 "ambigous' subjects! I don't know how to describe it but...OHR paper,I am seriously not sure whether to believe Sir or not.This term-'no return' and 'I don't "yam" people one' scares me a lot! How true is that?and another'read for fun'?Okay~he may think that it makes people have sweet dreams at night but...I'm worried.Plus...another thing that is bothering me,I'm not studying enough yet.Don't know why,I just DON'T!So used to doing thing at the last minute...only to cry blood at the end...Can't pull myself away from watching America's Next Top Model and Janice Dickinson's Modelling Agency.!
To make matters worse,the rain...uh!Yuck~whatever...have to bear with it! I only have a few days to go...and my adrenaline isn't rushing yet...what is wrong with me?!?!
Almost lose my temper today,a sincere apology,but I did my best not to speak too much when I'm angry,but some people are really good at heating up your blood to the boiling point and almost blow up your veins...
Luckily,GOD created ice-cream.Cooling my system down again...Nice ~and luckily GOD created my friends,we laughed at nothing but silly jokes...and sharing that cup of mango-soya,guava-mango ice,haha^^
And..I would like to thank them ...because of constant 'yumcha' session,I'm actually gaining weight!wee~~
And..finally..exam slips came to me...having 2 "ambigous' subjects! I don't know how to describe it but...OHR paper,I am seriously not sure whether to believe Sir or not.This term-'no return' and 'I don't "yam" people one' scares me a lot! How true is that?and another'read for fun'?Okay~he may think that it makes people have sweet dreams at night but...I'm worried.Plus...another thing that is bothering me,I'm not studying enough yet.Don't know why,I just DON'T!So used to doing thing at the last minute...only to cry blood at the end...Can't pull myself away from watching America's Next Top Model and Janice Dickinson's Modelling Agency.!
To make matters worse,the rain...uh!Yuck~whatever...have to bear with it! I only have a few days to go...and my adrenaline isn't rushing yet...what is wrong with me?!?!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Awesome Nineteen!
Woot!6 April 2009!Best Burpday ever!Thanking all my besties and everyone who made this so memorable! Did not expect them to do this,but YES ofcz...was touched to tears...*erm ,tissues pls...*Really,....appreciate this a lot!
Wow! They were good at this.A surprise B'day!!Definitely a great and unforgetable 1one! Wanna thank everyone that day for making my birthday a memorable one!What can I say?I'm was speechless and happy^^
My girlfrens n me...n the prezzies^^
Siow Jun,the 'Yeng' one...
Jia Yit,the Q and lovely one...
Julia...the...childish one...
Jas,.....the...the....erm....ET?haha=]
Zi Wei,the Q n Q n Q one!!hehe;]
Peace~^^
Arigatou again...to my besties who bought a Kawaii shirt for me...and yes it was too kawaii...sked it doesn't look good on me,haha..but decide to try on something different sometimes..TQ!!!Thanks again to Rachel n the gang,Winnie,Lee Teng and Vivian,for Edward..haha,I mean the DVD and of course the big poster*now ,Edward visits me in my bedroom every night now~^^*And Michael and Wei Jian,the red hair,thanks for the book...it's all about Edward LOL~Appreciate it a lots....and of cz the Secret Recipe rasberry cheesecake*gonna upload the pic soon...*and..and...everyone with their thoughtful wishes!*sobs*oh..and the KFC !!thanks for allowing us to mess up the place...and most importantly...my family^^Love u guys lotz!!Mwaks!!Not good at expressing myself here~*blush*
Wow! They were good at this.A surprise B'day!!Definitely a great and unforgetable 1one! Wanna thank everyone that day for making my birthday a memorable one!What can I say?I'm was speechless and happy^^ My girlfrens n me...n the prezzies^^ Siow Jun,the 'Yeng' one... Jia Yit,the Q and lovely one... Julia...the...childish one... Jas,.....the...the....erm....ET?haha=]Zi Wei,the Q n Q n Q one!!hehe;]
Peace~^^Arigatou again...to my besties who bought a Kawaii shirt for me...and yes it was too kawaii...sked it doesn't look good on me,haha..but decide to try on something different sometimes..TQ!!!Thanks again to Rachel n the gang,Winnie,Lee Teng and Vivian,for Edward..haha,I mean the DVD and of course the big poster*now ,Edward visits me in my bedroom every night now~^^*And Michael and Wei Jian,the red hair,thanks for the book...it's all about Edward LOL~Appreciate it a lots....and of cz the Secret Recipe rasberry cheesecake*gonna upload the pic soon...*and..and...everyone with their thoughtful wishes!*sobs*oh..and the KFC !!thanks for allowing us to mess up the place...and most importantly...my family^^Love u guys lotz!!Mwaks!!Not good at expressing myself here~*blush*
Oh...gotta get going...I'm late again!Gonna leave this blog alone for awhile...at least after catching up on some study on OHR and PF!Burpdays over...now...gotta start moving~cz exams haunting !!All the best to everyone who is facing the coming exams!GamBateh!!^^
Love,
Bell.
Thursday, April 2, 2009
P.S: I want to quit smoking ...but...
still puffing away~Ergh...how many times I said this to myself...that I want to do this...quit...QuiT!!! But...somebody help me please!! I can't! Bell ,QUIT!!QUIT SMOKING!!
Okay~I can imagine your jaws dropping to the floor now.Let me make it clear ..but first...mind closing the gap of your jaws?Thank you=]
Today...took the LRT to terminal and waited for the bus.Glad,wee~there was the sun,there is not many people...I was alone...scared but fine~Then came 2 guys,probably around my age,sat next to me,throwing glances as they settled down.I just continued to engross in the beautiful tune of YUI-Blue Wind.And then...this 2 guys started to smoking...ERGH!!! It happens everytime ! I can't sit and wait for the bus peacefully..I can't stand it..the smell of cigarettes..it makes me want more! I'm ADDICTED!!! I'm tempted!
OH no!..I'm just kidding*compensation on missed April Fool's Day^^*I can't stand it...it suffocates me..I get angry,annoyed to be precise. I decided to sit further away...Then,just 5 seconds passed,came a middle-age man,sat in front of me and started puffing away...ARRRRGGGGH!!!TAK TAHAN LAH!!!!...Turn left...an old man was doing the same...turn right, taxi drivers did the same..LOL,as if I were the only one a non-smoker there!
Then I decided to find a place further away...good. I was separated from these puffers by the soft drink dispenser there...great...and continued listening to my MP4...See why I can't quit,everywhere I go...they were there..puffing away..and puffing out dirty air from their lungs right into our dear fragile lungs!For goodness sake,I totally hate it when I am forced to breath their stinking breath when I was having my meals..DAMN!Polluting the air! I am forced to become a secondary smoker!YIKES!!!YUCKS!!If they just smoke lesser,i believe the air pollution wouldn't be so bad right?To make matters worse,while chatting with a friend just a moment ago,he confessed that he started puffing too! I wonder if he would just quit it before it's too late...
Alright,I can't tell them not to smoke if they want to continue burning their money,blackening their lungs~Okay...since I didn't blog a few days ago,I still remember what I suppose to report to you guys what exactly I did on Earth Hour..yea,that 1 hour.I went back hometown,and I can't tell my grandparents to turn off the lights,so when it was 8.30pm,I was suppose to go to bath..but...remembering the Earth Hour,I decided not to bath first, and convinced my parents that we should go out for dinner instead...So,lights were off...we went for dinner...turned off my handphone for 1 hour.Haha..that was what I did..anyway,my father joked that we did our part by switching off the lights in our home*since we were away*LOL~did that even count?no idea!!
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