I don't mean to whine....but...

If you wanna know, I have just celebrated my 2010 New Year. Cheers...no?
I have just done my killing. Yes,killing my 6 papers that doesn't seem to entice me at all since the very first week. But,I finally tried my best to understand them,really..not love at first sight. Like the malay proverb,"tak kenal,maka tak cinta." You will never ever love one thing until you get to know them. Like very other semester I made a promise to myself to start earlier...but things will never go my way all the time.
Dah,tadah..bla bla...whatever it is..it's over ryte??.I deserved to chill. So, chill. To be honest, I'm worried about MA a lot...theory part like the chinese say "chui sui"...means BS la...I done it a lot of times..this time no exception. Dear markers, please be lenient. I hope. *my wishful thinking* Same goes to PA..I never loved it . Sorry Ms Jessie. And FAP too...
Darn it!...lets not talk about exams..talk about now. I have so much to say.......so much..but seemed to have throw it in the recycle bin right after exams. Nevermind,give me a minute. Oh yeah, New Year.Let's just talk about the new year. 2010,I went to Curve for the countdown. I love Bukit Bintang a lot but my mom was hesitant to go there. First,it's the jam, second will be the drowsy kids there.Yeah, so...Curve,Damansara was the final choice. The concert there was better than previous year in 2008 *2009 I went Sg Wang* The kids there are more decent ,except for some guys..trying to get too near..beware...!! But..the crowd there was amazing. I losed my parents minutes before 2010 arrives..so i was busy searching for them,I was pushed back into Ikea, and decided the best way was to just stay in there...and ended up 'listening' to the fireworks instead. great.wat a new year to begin with....It's okay,something different at least.
Thinking back, Itried to summarize the whole 2009. What I've learned,what I've achieved,who I've met....and most important of all.....how it had all changed me. I have changed,slightly i guess. For better or worst,I don't dare to say. Good thing is, I find smiling easier. The bad thing is, I am worried that I might take everything too easy till I forget what is my main aim in life. Yes, I am a human too,I tend to have to much fun at times. But, best year so far..2009.Too much happenings, too much. Almost too much for me to take at times. Things happen for reasons...and I guessed I've learned so much, I feel glad.
Happenings like,friends hooking up*in a good way*,outings ,normal jokes and other lame stuffs are some of great moments. While...yea, some do fall out of love...conflicts, tests...are some of erm not so good lar. Well well, it is still the best year out of my 19th years of living on this earth. However, things would not be so much better if these important people weren't in my life. You should know who you guys are. *Ask me if you must*
I wish the best for every single person on earth,those suffering from natural disasters, I really send my condolences. I hope everything will cure as time passes...rebuilt and continue to be strong to faced whatever that might happen. I hope it is not too late to wish every single friends to have a better yaer ahead in 2010 and all the best in achieving good results that will possibly be out in a month's time. I also wish, this year I will continue to learn and never stop learning about life. I want to love life. Wao...that is so many wishes...I'm not greedy okay.....just....a little more excited.
Hopefully all my friends and I are able to go to the next round. Yeah, we are going to graduate this May, or June. Hope everything goes well...and continue our respective journey. Give ourselves a chance to have faith in ourselves. For now,I'm living with this,'Never hit the breakes!' Even if you have to, make it worthwhile . Last but not least, an early wishing towards a "Prosperous Chinese New Year!

huhu~T__T

I'm driving myself mad again. Exams is well... 1 week away...I can't believe the urge to study haven't strike me yet. Meteor...strike me so I can start study!
Feverish a few days back...not a nice feeling. And...GOD please oh please..let me have my appetite..at least till the end of my exams...my brain needs food. Bell..start study larrrrrr~~~

Meteor!-13th Dec 2009

Okay..yeah....a time to blog! Duih.What a Sem! Finally...I'm here again..with things to say again...
My first impression on something I've read last Friday on the Star newspaper was..."arh..watevala...won't come out one la...sai hei!" but..then again...I really wanna see it...
I excitedly told my dad about this....and yeah decided that I have to make an effort to see it if I really want to. So,on Sunday night...9pm, I went out to take a look at the sky..so bright...impossible to see it..went in..do some tutorials...10pm. Don't want to look dumb alone sitting in front of the gate, I "ajak" my brother to become dumbos together.*since he so free*. He said we really looked dumb lo...okaylo..then I suggested him to take out the green peas..and sambil wait sambil enjoy the peas lo...*ticktockticktock*..half an hour gone..my bro said if we finished the peas, and not a single meteor showed up..we call it a day...he even throw up the peas in the air and told me to make a wish!*LAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~

*ticktockticktock!arh....I started to get really restless..*not mentioning feeling rather dumb*I said to myself..11pm...meteor ..you don't show up..I'm going off..and you will never see me again..haha~~Then...I decided to just step outside my gate...look up..yeah..aeroplane ..duh! stars...and out of a sudden!! Meteor!!yeah.I actually saw a meteor! Bro saw it too!First time..and yeah we made a huuuhaaaa outside!aiyoks...mom and dad thought we went nuts~~It was 10.48pm. A friend of mine message me a minute later-"u saw that??* I said "Oh Yeah!" In this way..I knew it was not a crazy illusion of mine..I really saw it! OOOppppSss!!How could I forget!! I did not say my wish properly..just mumbles...I don't even remember what! GOSH! It was a fast one...did it pay off?Oh yeah~^^

never happen.

Somethings will never happen,even how you wish it will happen...you will never always own things you think you love. Get into reality...focus only the important things...don't waste your hope..don't waste your time, on something that is impossible... I'm drowned with my own miseries..don't add in yours...because I'll probably get suffocated and say things I don't mean...don't say I didn't warn you...get a life,and live yours...

stress!

It's already the end of week 7 of this semester. As usual, I'll be busy-ing with my flooding assignments and it never fails to make me feel like drowning. I'm so stress now. Keeping up with these are not easy, never easy for me. I sometimes feel useless when I don't understadn what FAP tutor is bla bla-ing in front. He looks at me, I look at him...I felt sorry for myself.He is such a good tutor..having a bad student. Coursework 1 spells hopelessness! I hate FAP! I hate accounts! but why i study this subject? I don't know ler...haiz!

PA assignment finally done. CLG is driving me mad! SO many things to read, so many things to write. Not sure whats going in...whatever. I just need to pour out here or else...I be kicking in my sleep...shouting....screaming..in frustration! Thank God I had this blog! Sorry guys, bear with my grumpy-ness these days! And these rainy, gloomy days isn't going to help~I'm going to continue my CLG assignment now.Wish everyone luck staying up late to finish these stuffs! Got CLG replacement tomorrow and GOD! It's another Saturday already! I have been dreaming a lot!! NITEZ~=(

everytime...

You never fail to make me feel better. I wished you could do this forever, no matter who we will be in the future. I just wish I could just reach to you whenever I need. I wished things wouldn't change and stay as beautiful . How impossible. How complicated. Things wouldn't be as I wanted, no matter how badly I wanted. Whatever it is, stay that way...for now. I wouldn't blame anyone if things change. I'll try to cope, try to build this fragile soul of mine. I believe I've done better now. Someone had told me to change or warned me at least,to be precised. Change for the better, try to look things at a different perspective. I'm trying, though not that hard. I like it that way...it's hard to change. As for you, I felt lucky having a friend like you. You did your best to make me feel better...but all I did was...just mere 'no care' attitude. Ill be that way, for a reason you will know in time to come. Bear with me. You'll never read this..you'll never know what I'm thinking. How sad...

They Made You!

Haish Haish..Bell Bell...wat is wrong again? Thanks to you lar! I wanted to lash back at you today..unintelligent things you have said today,second thought, I've decided your not worth anything...not even 1 % of my second...Dude...darn it!Live your life~ Now I know you are not worthy~*juz to pour out my annoyance I faced today, ignore me*