Meteor!-13th Dec 2009

Okay..yeah....a time to blog! Duih.What a Sem! Finally...I'm here again..with things to say again...
My first impression on something I've read last Friday on the Star newspaper was..."arh..watevala...won't come out one la...sai hei!" but..then again...I really wanna see it...
I excitedly told my dad about this....and yeah decided that I have to make an effort to see it if I really want to. So,on Sunday night...9pm, I went out to take a look at the sky..so bright...impossible to see it..went in..do some tutorials...10pm. Don't want to look dumb alone sitting in front of the gate, I "ajak" my brother to become dumbos together.*since he so free*. He said we really looked dumb lo...okaylo..then I suggested him to take out the green peas..and sambil wait sambil enjoy the peas lo...*ticktockticktock*..half an hour gone..my bro said if we finished the peas, and not a single meteor showed up..we call it a day...he even throw up the peas in the air and told me to make a wish!*LAMEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~

*ticktockticktock!arh....I started to get really restless..*not mentioning feeling rather dumb*I said to myself..11pm...meteor ..you don't show up..I'm going off..and you will never see me again..haha~~Then...I decided to just step outside my gate...look up..yeah..aeroplane ..duh! stars...and out of a sudden!! Meteor!!yeah.I actually saw a meteor! Bro saw it too!First time..and yeah we made a huuuhaaaa outside!aiyoks...mom and dad thought we went nuts~~It was 10.48pm. A friend of mine message me a minute later-"u saw that??* I said "Oh Yeah!" In this way..I knew it was not a crazy illusion of mine..I really saw it! OOOppppSss!!How could I forget!! I did not say my wish properly..just mumbles...I don't even remember what! GOSH! It was a fast one...did it pay off?Oh yeah~^^

never happen.

Somethings will never happen,even how you wish it will happen...you will never always own things you think you love. Get into reality...focus only the important things...don't waste your hope..don't waste your time, on something that is impossible... I'm drowned with my own miseries..don't add in yours...because I'll probably get suffocated and say things I don't mean...don't say I didn't warn you...get a life,and live yours...

stress!

It's already the end of week 7 of this semester. As usual, I'll be busy-ing with my flooding assignments and it never fails to make me feel like drowning. I'm so stress now. Keeping up with these are not easy, never easy for me. I sometimes feel useless when I don't understadn what FAP tutor is bla bla-ing in front. He looks at me, I look at him...I felt sorry for myself.He is such a good tutor..having a bad student. Coursework 1 spells hopelessness! I hate FAP! I hate accounts! but why i study this subject? I don't know ler...haiz!

PA assignment finally done. CLG is driving me mad! SO many things to read, so many things to write. Not sure whats going in...whatever. I just need to pour out here or else...I be kicking in my sleep...shouting....screaming..in frustration! Thank God I had this blog! Sorry guys, bear with my grumpy-ness these days! And these rainy, gloomy days isn't going to help~I'm going to continue my CLG assignment now.Wish everyone luck staying up late to finish these stuffs! Got CLG replacement tomorrow and GOD! It's another Saturday already! I have been dreaming a lot!! NITEZ~=(

everytime...

You never fail to make me feel better. I wished you could do this forever, no matter who we will be in the future. I just wish I could just reach to you whenever I need. I wished things wouldn't change and stay as beautiful . How impossible. How complicated. Things wouldn't be as I wanted, no matter how badly I wanted. Whatever it is, stay that way...for now. I wouldn't blame anyone if things change. I'll try to cope, try to build this fragile soul of mine. I believe I've done better now. Someone had told me to change or warned me at least,to be precised. Change for the better, try to look things at a different perspective. I'm trying, though not that hard. I like it that way...it's hard to change. As for you, I felt lucky having a friend like you. You did your best to make me feel better...but all I did was...just mere 'no care' attitude. Ill be that way, for a reason you will know in time to come. Bear with me. You'll never read this..you'll never know what I'm thinking. How sad...

They Made You!

Haish Haish..Bell Bell...wat is wrong again? Thanks to you lar! I wanted to lash back at you today..unintelligent things you have said today,second thought, I've decided your not worth anything...not even 1 % of my second...Dude...darn it!Live your life~ Now I know you are not worthy~*juz to pour out my annoyance I faced today, ignore me*

results out!

Should I celebrate this? Should I ?! Yeah..I think I should .NOt only me...of course.WEEEE should celebrate this time! HAish...the only sakit hati part is..I got B+ for english! Although I would like to blame that "someone"..but..it doesn't make any difference...ah! Okay....this is a miracle ...but hard work does pay...!

But, Yeah ..I know..this semester is tougher...I'm getting lazier ...but I can't hit the brakes..I want to accelerate! Friends ...lets accelerate together!^^
Love,
BEll

Oh...I can't stand these days any longer...What on earth is wrong with me these days? Feel like the earth had even stop turning again. Please please please...install me a new memory!If I can just tell you this....haish~I just know I won't. T___T continue to suffer >.< Focus lar Bell!!!